Pregnant?!

I have been quite a long time didn't update my blog. Argghh......I should commit more time here, so i can improve my English, and write with a better English in my blog. But sometime, It just can't work, because I just don't know what should i post and what to share!! Erm....maybe....excuse again!!!

After back from Cameron Highland, I start busying with my job. I am enjoying with the busy life now because I can spend my time to learn something new. A challenge for myself......but sometime, i found that i am a bit lazy!! I have quite a high expectation towards myself. For those things i can't doing well, i will feel uncomfortable......even peoples think that i am doing quite well, but me myself, is not that satisfied my performance. I think, sometime, this kind of expectation is reasonable, and i believe it can push me to somewhere i want.

Recently, peoples like to ask me whether i am pregnant!! Sweat = =".......Yeah, agree agree.......As i am getting fatter compare to the time when i was having my wedding dinner!! Haizz...how come!!! I always go for exercise what?! Hmm.......I think, i really eat too much, and gain too much FAT inside my body!! Hmm.....2.5KG......got soooo obvious until people thought that i am pregnant?! Argghh, it make me so down and sad!! Don't care, don't care, i want to keep fit!!!

Pregnant?!!! Boooooo........Impossible to happen unless the "lucky star" falls to me!!

Alright......I will ask my stomach stop growing up and I want a FLAT abdomen!!!

I should control my appetite, trying to eat less and drink more!! Do more exercise like belly dance and yoga......I think it can help!! Hmm......I think, i will try to don't sit after eat......otherwise, all the fat will store in my stomach, make it look bigger!! OMG.......I don't wanna imaging again!!!

What I've plan for this weekend is to go for facial, practice my presentation, so coming Monday i can have a better performance!! Yesterday, because of dating with Mr.Transformer....then doesn't prepare it, the presentation that i had done is really POOR enough!!! Add oil add oil!!!

Add oil??!!

Boooo.......only add oil for my work, but not my body!! I am already FAT enough......now want to cut oil cut oil to make myself SLIM back!!

A new couple

Time to blog!!

Weekend again.

Yesterday went for a wedding dinner with my dear and we were very excited!! After marriage, this is our first time to attend someone's wedding. We are always proud that we are a perfect couple. You must wonder why i said so..... Well, as i am pretty and he is handsome(issshhh, if you are not agree)...... Both of us had the puppy love since primary school and start in love with each other when we were in secondary school. That's why, we are always proud of ourselve.

For time being, everything will change!! I think, I've been changed a lot as well...... Just like last time, I left him alone here and straight away go KL for my further study. He wait for me for 4 years plus...... He never owe me anything, but, this is what he paid for... even his time, and his contribution in this relationship.

Well, he is the one who always wait for me......buT, i am always the one who destroy his hope. Fortunately, he never give up me and he believe that we are used to be together, and in the end, we are!! I am unreasonable, very straight forward, and i always complain him that he doesn't treat me good. You can see that, a girl like me, is really not adorable at all!! Ahaha... how lucky am I that can get him in my site!!

Alright, by looking at this photo, can't deny that, he is really handsome!!

Both of us are means to be together!!

Trip

You know, few months ago......i booked a pair of air ticket for myself and HowGe to Bangkok as that time the AirAsia has the promotion. 2 return tickets is only worth RM398.......which is really cheap!!! Without thinking much, i booked it. And I can have my first honeymoon with him in this coming November. That is a 6days 5night Bangkok trip~~~

Unfortunate, i received a mail from AirAsia last month, mentioned that the flight that I've booked is cancelled. What the hell......I am really not happy with it. As that actually will be my first flight in my life!! Walaoei, this really disappointed me, make me feel a bit sad......

I thought, my Bangkok trip will just become a bubble....But, at last.....my uncle-in-law help me to ask for it. So, i still can be able to go for my trip, just, have to depart from Singapore to Bangkok. Well.......this is not my honeymoon anymore, as some of my relatives will go with me at that same time also. ^ ^........aha.......it is more looks like a family trip~~

Besides Bangkok trip, i have booked another trip as well!! Yeah...I will go to Taiwan in next year March~~!!! You can see that, i start achieves my dream one by one......yes, i love to travel around, and what i plan is, visit 2 countries each year~~ Yeah, 2 countries per year, i think this is not too much, right?!

Okay, after the long story about Bangkok and Taiwan......Now, i want to talk about my Cameron highland trip also!! Yeah Yeah, I will have a trip in Cameron Highland tomorrow with all AXP's members!! Weee......my LX3 will become very HOT then!! Ahaha, bcoz i am sure, everyone, including me, sure want to take AS MUCH pictures AS POSSIBLE during this trip!! Wow....so excited man...... Nice photo will be uploaded once i come back!!


Alright, my LX3 is with me now...just i am a newbie for LX3, really don't have much "potential" photo can really post in here. Well, boring blog i have...but, be patient to wait for my photos, ok?! Ahaha.....


Wish you guys have a nice weekend!! Wish me have a nice trip in Cameron Highland with colleagues as well.......wow, i can now smell the Steamboat, BBQ, and my favorate's CORNsssssss!! Yeah, i will sure buy A LOT of cornssss for myself.....No choice, because I LOVE CORNSSS!!! Hek Hek Hek....

Babbled

I am wonder why i am so happy and exciting, maybe this is the power of LX3!! People, i will get my LX3 soon!! Yes, very soon......really can't wait for it!!! Aha....i watch it everyday, every hours, every minutes as i put this as my wallpaper on my desktop~~~lalalalala~~~~LX3 LX3 LX3!!

Alright, i know...i spent too much in this month!! I paid the ACCA exemption fees which already can kill me in somewhere, i went for shopping, facial, and again i buy a camera......= =" Alright, I promise, i will tight up my burse start from next month, PROMISE!!

In between of PSP, Wii, and camera......i make a dicision to buy the camera. Ironically, i ran out of my budget, but i still want to buy it, you can see that, i am really stubborn for something that i really wanted for!! This is good, or bad?!! Aha.....don't care.....don't care.....!!

I am glad, i am quite a lucky girl.....Peoples around me are nice, willing to share and willing to teach. BuT, i will still work hard, to create the miracles in my life!! People come people go, appreciate everyone beside you is the most important mission for me...... I am still learning, are you?! Feels like learn a lot of recipes about the traditional food's from my mom, but, i alwasy got no enough time to do it...... Hmmmm......excuse again?!!

For time being, all those traditional food will disappear if WE don't want to learn......i just don't hope this will happen in someday!! I wish my future kids can be able to eat those nice and delicious homemade traditional food as well......Yeah, i am willing to do it for them, if i have kids!!

Okay la....a lot to share, but maybe in next blog!! Here i gone.....

Imperfect vs Perfect

He is not a perfect lover

He is not romantic
He got no time to understand me
He lack of experience to make a gal happy
He don't know anything about sweet talk
He has a very bad temper
He is lazy in somewhere
He can sing really BAD
He can fall asleep easily with snore

He love to watch TV rather than me

He alwasy feels like be my master, order me do this and that
He love to kakacaocao me

But

He is my husband

A man that love me a lot

A man that very hard working
A man that who is very responsible

A man that have a very wide shoulder

A man that always feels like protect me

A man that who is always allow me to bite him

A man that who hav a BIG HAND

A man that try to bring me around even he is LAZY

A man that loves his family very much

A man that loves my family vy much too

That is him, my dear How Ge

I can't deny that he is really not a perfect lover

buT every imperfect, is perfect for me

as...long...as...

He is with me

as long as

we appreciate

we care

and

we love

Random #1

Yoohooo.....Friday!!! Well, i just went back from Singapore for the CommunicAsia~~ Heard my colleagues said that the CommunicAsia in previous year were more magnificent. But this year looks like nothing much over there......we just walk around, and take some free gift......yeah, FREE GIFT!! I am too shy, didn't get much compare to them~~But i got a very nice pen!! Is enough for me already, since i am easy to please. Hekhekhek~~

Before i went there, i thought i am able to found the product that i wanted to look for~~in fact, i didn't found it!! Really nothing much there........

I plan to own a camera as i am really like to take photo. Recently, i found a very nice camera, which introduce by my fren, called Panasonic Lumix LX-3!! At first, when i don't know much about this camera, i found that it's UGLY!! In fact, this camera carries a lot of nice features, and it make me feels that it's really COOL compare to others~~

Of course, the price is not that cheap, is around RM1680.....><"...... Which is really out of my budget!!! This camera carries DSLR function but with a smaller size, that's why, it make me in love with LX-3!! Yeah, after do some survey and price comparison, i think, i will own it soon~~




Here are some photos taken by some photographers who using LX-3:~

How how how?! Cool right?!


Since i donno much about camera, and i am not a professional photographer, so i think, this camera is JUST NICE to me!! I can pick up my shooting skill after i got my camera!! People, wait for it~~ Nice photos capture by ME is coming soon~~~ Muahahahaha~~~~


Dehhhh......time to stop!! Wish u guys have a nice weekend~~

Sweatin day"

I start in love with the "bath toning"!! Wow, it really make me sweat like bath......a lot of FAT can be burnt~~ Aha, that's why, i start in love with this exercise besides the Belly dance!! Must keep doing this in every monday after work~~!!

After the exercise, i back home directly......I saw my hubby younger brother was doing something, looks sneaking, but that time i was engaged and i didn't bother him much. After all, somebody is bathing...while waiting, I think of the sneaking face and action from younger brother, again, to prove it, i go and check something in outside!! That is sad, bcoz i found some bloodstain on the ground.

Of course, it make me very angry......

I was blocking him while he come out from the bathroom. He looks scare, ask me lower down my voice and instruct me go inside his room....I know, he don't want to let his father know about it!! Once in his room, i check the condition of injury on his leg...... And i was very angry, i never scold him, but, i can't control myself: "Accident again, alright, don't drive the motobike again from now on"!! He trying to explain something......and, i believe him......buT, i just don't know what will happen after his dad know about it!!

I told my hubby about it during our YumCha time, and, he is more mad than me.....his bad temper, is exactly imparted by his father. That is why, i don't dare to tell his father about it, and I am sure his younger brother will being disaster on it also!! I just want to prevent this, but, actually, i got no idea on it. I just ask my hubby to help him apply the medicine on his leg......try to being soft to his brother, change another way to treat him...mayb, his brother will realize that, we are worry about him instead of keep reproach him!! Keep reproach him only will make him feel like want to run away, he is just a teenager, in rebel age......We should, change our method to teaching him about this lesson.

Well......Things that we are trying to avoid was happened. His father discover something in the early morning, the motobike was broken down. He was very mad, he made a call to mother who has gone for work and keep complaining through the phone. I am awake while i'm preparing to work......I am suffering, but again, i don't know what to do!! When i go out from room, he saw me, and asked me, did i know anything about it...i answered, YES. He is getting more mad, said "why all of you know about it, but no one tell me the truth?!"


I am speechless........
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I am worrying about tonight.......thinking of skip my belly dance class, and back home earlier.

I am thiking of whether want to find him(father) for a lunch, share something with him about my opinion, so that tonight can be pass peacefully~~ But, i still don't know what to do.......arggh........

Realised make me growth

I was realized something today, luckily, I realized it today!! Nothing is too late, I have only doubt about it for around 9 months, luckily…is not 1 year!! Now…everything seems so clear for me!! Obviously, I’m not happy!! Of course, what I thought for these months has been gone in just a few minutes!! No point for me to smile…...

A lot of things is keep running in my mind, pressure start entangle me!! I just can’t control and calm down myself…… Again, at last……I realized, I am just a NORMAL people in the world!! I am not expressive, I don’t even know how to express my feeling…… For those things that I don’t know much, I always use my own way to look for the answer! And, it works!! During my studies life, I don’t know much…but I always use my own way to seek for the answer without ask for clarification from lecture/tutor!! Most all the time, my judgment is really works……but, when people come and ask me how do I found the answer, but I can’t really answer them, even I know how to it!! Because, I just know what I know……the detail or reason, I really don’t know!!

Come to work, I am same as last time…when come to the things I am not sure, again, I will use my judgment to think and provide an answer. But, I discovered that with a lot of uncertainties, the things is really can’t works!! Because, what I have is “I not sure”, “I think”, “It should be”, “I thought”, and UNCERTAINTIES……. I am afraid to clarify the things that I don’t know, I not sure, and I doubt about from people!! Hahahahah……I just can’t stop myself to laugh myself!! I AM SICK OF IT……HELP!!

Okay, back to normal. With this, I found that I was lost in somewhere……But, I discover something which is very important in my life!! I told myself:

Anything I don’t know -- ASK

Anything that I am not sure -- ASK

Anything that I am in doubt -- ASK

What are the things that I want to complete by today, by this month, this quarter, this year, 5th year, 10th year, 20th years, and this life?!

You will see a brand new me again, with my wonderful gentle smile!! This is just a stage, just an obstacle which happened in my life to make me growth from every fell down.


11-06-09 9.42pm

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Today, a brand new day for me……I woke up in an early morning, and had a very nice breakfast without rushing!! A wonderful day for me, yes, I make my day…..just because I believe what I have believed!! A mission for myself, cheers my life up!!

12-06-09 9.27am

I Appreciate

Today, seems like is my bad day!! Hmm, i think not my bad day, but the person who care me......

Yeah, the first person is my dar, as he alwasy laying on the bed until the very last minutes in the early morning. I just don't like he is always being like this, bcoz it alwasy make me mad...while i'm busy preparing stuff, i still have to worry about him, wake him up at time so that he won't be late!! But, i am the one always late, swt......you know, guy can get ready SUPER fast, 10minutes they can settle everything including brush teeth, bath, change attire, and setting their hair!! But for gals, haiz...no need to mention you already know what's happening, yeah, at least 30-40minutes for me to prepare and get ready!! That's why, i am mad......both of us is in rush, but i still have to take care of him!! We took the breakfast without talking. He made a cup of milo to me, and i mad on him again, he stared at me with lot of question mark...... But i still never being soft to him and i said: I can't finished the Milo, why you made for me?!!

He was very upset, and he drank 2 cup of Milo in front of me...... Why i'm being like that?!!! Maybe, i'm mad, beside that, I prefer to share with him with a cup of Milo instead of seperate it into two cup!!!

Another gentleman who care me, also, i think i have hurt him!! With lot of misunderstanding...... I think, i was wrong.... But i just can't explain it nicely to him!! Sorry..... When i am not in the mood, i can't talk nicely but with a lot of nonsense!!! yeah yeah...I am bad!!!


Something make me awake, i think, i should hit my head and make myself clear!! Nothing can be destroyed my optimism but myself!! I am the one who need to say SORRY!! Just want to let you guys know that, i am appreciate you~~ And i appreciate everything happens in my life too~~!! Cheerrssss!!

A very happy birthday to you (Wei Chen), wish u have a pleasant day!!

The second

I am so exciting with my new blog space!! I don't know why, i just feels that i want to make my little space to become more meaningful~~ It looks poor since that is only a few blog entry here!! I must taking this opportunities (since i am free at home) to post another new blog!!

I just bought a 2G RAM for my Mr.Toshiba, it cost me RM85!! Now, my Mr.Toshiba have total 3G RAM, i believe "he" can perform even faster compare to last time, wahaha!! Actually before that, i was planning to buy an External hardisk which the storage around 250G-350G, so that i can backup my thing into the new hardisk from the previous hardisk. But the storage of the hardisk that i required is not available in the retail shop......sigh, i have to spend another time to look for it again!!

Now is 8.35pm, and i was thinking that whether want to go to my primary school to watch the Basketball competition!! As my younger brother will be part of the player in the competition, it's really make me feels like going...... The game will be started at 9.00pm, 25minutes left~~ Since i gone to KL for my studies until now, around 5 years plus...arggg...how many nice competition i had missed!! I think, i got no reason to ask myself not to go, bcoz, i really wish to go and be the best supporter for my brother's team!!

Time to go, dirty me...until now still haven bath!! Don't care...after the competition only go back and bath!!! Lalalalala~~~

The firSt

Well, since long time ago, i already plan to have an English blog......I did tried to had one, but, i have been given up since long time ago, maybe i never appreciate the chances that i given myself!! Things will never become yours without putting any effort....... Me myself, I alwasy feels like want to improve my english, but, i always give myself a lot of excuse and refuse to do it!!


Yesterday, i created a new website for myself ...Again, this is a brand new space for me, for me to blog in English...yeah, maybe now i can only show you my broken english!! But, for time being, i believe my english level can be improved~~


Let's talk about others thing!! I don't know what to share, but, i'll try to share every little things happens on me to you~~ Maybe, start with my current job!! Alright, actually a lot of people do not know what i'm doing actually. My company, actually is an IT company, but most of my colleagues they are also from accounting background, and also they're ex-auditor~~ I'm here, work as a Consultant...sound professional, but, as you know...i am not professional at all, too friendly already la~!! Our company come out with an Audit software, so, i have been trained as an trainer to teach the auditors how to use our software!! Also, slowly, after pick up the skill, i have to do the the marketing to introduce this Audit software to others practitioner, in order to help them maximizing their value!!


I hope to optimize my value and gain more experience in this company!! Although my salary now is still very less, which only can cover my montly expenses, but, i believe i can get highest once i growth!! Just believe what i have believed......i alwasy told myself that "nothing in the world has ever been accomplished without PASSION"!! I don't like to compare my salary with others, i just want to compare the TODAY's ME with the YESTERDAY's ME!! Whether i have been growth from yesterday?! I know i wish to grow faster, but i am slow...... Passion, passIon, and PASSION, i know i really need it!! But sometime, it just doesn't appearred if you totally do not know what you really want, or you dunno what u believe whether is what you want~~!! We can't foresee anything in the future, but i believe we can create our future!!


Yes, just like me, i move my first step...create an English blog for myself!! Sound boring, but it means a lot for me!! Alright, stop babbling here...here i end!!